My whole body is dry and crackly. It's amazing what a 30 degree drop in temperature can do to your skin. It's weird, when I look at myself in pictures, I look healthy, but my body aches like I'm some 70 year old woman...I think I've reached the age where neglecting exercise will have very negative effects...What to do?

Apparently the electric company is closed. That means I will have no electricity at my new apartment. Yay!

Here is the poem I wrote for one of my lessons before I found out that my grandpa has (maybe) two days to live, and a friend I used to work with has died of liver cancer at the age of 25:

Furious

The dark clouds came down.
A warning to us that nature was furious.
The thunder stomped.
The rain pounded.
And my twisted umbrella flew away.

I think, when you grow up, the words melt into the "normalness" of the day...

***That's all I can manage for tonight***

The Story of Dos Gringos

Last night Jason's truck was towed away. Along with every other car that was in the lot we parked in. The tow truck guy and the police were working together last night to make a hella lot of money off drunk twenty somethings, and it worked.

I was pissed. I didn't talk to Jason for half an hour while we walked to the tow truck place hoping it would be less than ten dollars to spring his truck. On our way we ran into his friend Moe who was hanging out with some girls he had just met. They were both from Cali, and when I told one of the girls I went to SUA, she told me her community college professor had worked there and called us a cult.

When we got to the tow truck place, the guy behind the barbed wire told us he would happily give us Jason's truck if we coughed up $140.

While Jason walked to the ATM, I stayed behind and kicked it with the these big ass Chollos who kept threatening to shoot the guy behind the barbed wire. At this point I just started laughing, especially since one of the guys peed on the fence and then they made the wait for the cars a dance party by bumping the music in the truck they had drove over in super loud.

I was laughing because if I didn't I was gonna cry...

Jason paid, I decided to forgive him for parking in a tow away zone, and we drove home happily ever after at 3 o' clock in the morning.

I'm two weeks into my summer break, and now that my summer academy is over, I can finally start to relax. My brain is tired. My body is tired. Maybe the first order of business should be a 48 hour long nap...:)

16 days! And trust me, I am indefinitely counting. I can't wait for summer break. I can't wait for open toed shoes, and waking up at 5:3oam only when I want to.

I was thinking about a life without summer break, and I've pretty much come to the conclusion that it would be no life at all. I am spoiled and working for twelve months in a row would probably force me to check into the loony bin. Yeah, it's that serious.

I told Jason that I was confused about my future. What I didn't tell him is that I'm confused about my future because he's unclear about his. In my future, I see him with me. But his unclear vision is messing with mine. Reminds me of the song lyric: You touched my heart, You touched my soul, you changed my life and all my goals...

I saw two rainbows today.

And they reminded me of Costa Rica.

Which reminded me of being twenty and feeling like thirty was so far away.

That led me to the thought that I will soon be twenty-five.

Which made me feel like crying.

Because it reminded me that when I went into Davids Bridal the other day, to pick up my brides maids dress, I had the overwhelming desire to have a wedding of my own.

And it reminded me that yesterday, when I saw a commercial for baby diapers, this weird feeling stirred inside of me that I wanted a cute little baby of my own.

Which scared me shitless.

And rainbows aren't supposed to do that.

He introduced me to his friends yesterday, and when he did, he called me his girlfriend, and asked me "so how did we meet," and "how long would you say we've been together?" And there in that dimly lit bar, we made up OUR story...

I have a boyfriend y'all and it's taking me everything I can, not to pinch myself to check if it's all a dream. Not to doubt that this is real...

Everything has changed.  I thought, that maybe, everyone had been waiting here, entombed in wax.  But they were moving forward, backward, fluid.  And everyone is different.  And that's the way it should be.